Thursday, 17 November 2011

Sorry for the delay ;)

I haven't been on in forever!

My son got the hang of crawling about a month ago, was slow to begin with but now he is a machine! He has also been pulling himself up on everything, he loves to stand and has managed to stand unassisted for all of 3 seconds. I can't imagine it will be too long before he moves on to figuring out this walking business. I can't believe how fast he picks things up, I think he is pretty clever.

He has stayed in his cot apart from little stints overnight when I bring him in for a feed and then pop him back, sometimes I will let him stay for a little while before I move him. I like having him beside me sometimes for a snuggle, I don't like it when he wakes up at the crack of dawn and starts climbing all over the place and beating up me and daddy and just being a menace in general. Damn this summer sunshine that rises at an ungodly hour of 4.30am, I can usually get him to go back to sleep a little longer. He typically wakes up just after 6am and I refuse to get out of bed that early so make him stay in there with me a bit longer. Gone are the days of sleeping in, I would almost consider 7am a sleep in these days!

We are still going to swimming lessons, he is yet to stick his head under yet...kind of freaks me out a little bit. Some days he is all good and other days (usually when he is tired) he can be more challenging. Like when I try  and get him to sit on the pool step and he will arch his back, little bugger.

I recently discussed the idea of going back to work with the hubby, I really miss it. Of course it would have to be for the right price. Ideally I think I will wait until he is weaned off the boob. Guess only time will tell what will come of this.

I can't believe it is only 5 weeks till christmas, not only that but my son's first christmas...exciting stuff. Even though he will be more interested in trying to eat the wrapping paper than anything else. I am looking forward to it, I like christmas. I enjoy it more when I am not broke as I like buying presents for people and just the festivities in general. I used to love work christmas parties with free food and booze and times.

Speaking of booze, I haven't had a drink in forever and have probably had no more than a few total since he was born almost 9 months ago. Where does the time go???

I am off to see the new Twilight movie this Saturday night with a bunch of girlfriends at the gold class cinema and I can't wait.

It's also the hubby's birthday next week but we are too broke to celebrate it, I can't even afford to buy him a present. Sigh...I feel bad.

Well that will do for now, the wee one wants my attention.

Ciao x

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

Where to begin?

It has been a while since I last posted, god knows I can't remember it all so I will just fill you in on the main bits.

I decided to try my son in his cot again, he had been waking up a lot in our bed & was difficult to resettle so I figured since I wasn't really getting any extra sleep by having him there I would try the cot again. It has been almost 2 weeks now since he has been in there. The initial transition was rough, he woke every hour. Since then he has slowly improved, still not sleeping through the night but usually only wakes a couple of times. He has randomly thrown in the odd 5-6 hour stretch, last night it was 10.30pm till 3.30am. Slowly but surely we are getting there.

We started swimming lessons last week, it is Tuesday mornings and I go with my sister who takes her 4yo daughter at the same time. It is nice and we tend to grab a coffee afterwards, there were tears this week as the pool heater had blown up and it was son is not a fan of cold water, just like his mummy.

We are super close to crawling, he gets up on all fours and rocks back & forth. He is able to roll all over the place to get around and do 360 degrees and even push backwards a little bit but I don't think it will be too long before he figures out how to go forward. That will keep me on my toes.

This weekend we are going to have a BBQ at our place to watch the AFL Grand Final...Go PIES!

I am off to do the Body Pump class at gym tonight, it has been forever since I have done it and I am not looking forward to's gonna hurt.

Right now I am listening to my overtired baby refusing to go to sleep, sigh. He exhausts me sometimes, he's lucky I love him. I never know what I am going to get with his sleeps...he did an hour & a half nap this morning, and has only slept 2x 40min naps since. Even though he has been rubbing his eyes and is clearly tired he still fights it. I wish my baby liked sleep.

Anyway I best be off to try and convince the stubborn little mite that having a sleep is what's best for him.

Friday, 9 September 2011

The return of Aunt Flo

Well I was lucky enough to be period free for pregnancy through to almost 7 months. It was bound to happen sooner or later...and low and behold, I am craving chocolate! ha

Last night was a shocker with the boy, he woke a lot and would not re-settle easily...trying to fool him with the dummy failed miserably and he would only go back to sleep after some boob. Needless to say I am tired today and having a lazy day.

Yesterday was a good day, my sister came over with my 4 year old niece (who I refer to as the little enigizer bunny as she just goes and goes and goes) and we hit up the newly opened Baby Bunting store. Followed by a walk around the shops and lunch. On that note, I hate when I order a steak medium rare and it comes out practically well done, grrrr.

Not much planned for the weekend as yet, I have a baby shower to go to on Sunday. Should be interesting, as I am only newly acquainted with the girl having the shower and the two mutual friends who I thought would also be going aren't, meaning I am not going to know anyone else there. I am looking at it as a potential opportunity to make new friends, I am sure it will still be a good day.

I am feeling rather bored today. There is only so much internet you can look at until you get over it.

Also it was a gorgeous day here yesterday but today it is overcast and meh.

Well that's all from me for now, as usual...nothing exciting to report here.

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

By Popular Demand...ha

Alright Alright, I know I have been slack when it comes to this. Sorry bout that.

Let's see, where to start...

I think my son may be teething again, there has been drool galore, lots of munching on absolutely everything and the occasional rosy cheeks...not to mention the bad sleep habits (but then that is nothing new but there have been some shockers). So I am on tooth watch but there doesn't seem to be any telltale bumps on the horizon yet.

He is much more chatty now and loves to yell out Da Da Da Da...although I have told the hubby that he can't claim that until he knows what he is saying, ha. It is awfully cute though, he is definitely finding his voice.

In other news, the hubby and I joined a gym last week. Let me tell you, it has been awhile! I went and did a Body Attack class last Saturday morning and boy am I out of practice. Mind you, it has been well over a year since I had worked out properly. I am still a little sore 3 days later, ouch. We are both trying to improve our eating habits and cut out a lot of the junk, I miss chocolate.

Saturday night I had a girls night (well for a few hours), out for a quick meal followed by a movie. We went and saw 'Friends with Benefits', loved it...was a funny movie with some eye candy, excellent. It was nice to have a bit of down time, although not so nice when I got home and found out that the boy had been incredibly upset and inconsolable for a while. Poor bug...

Sunday was hubby's first Father's Day. We met up with some friends for a morning picnic at the beach, followed by a quick stop at the Shopping Centre...whilst there I had a zip malfunction on my shorts and had to by a new pair of pants (what a good excuse!). Followed by a lovely lunch at a new sushi place in Broadbeach. It was a nice day.

In not so fun news, I have been getting headaches off and on for a week or so sucks. In the old days I would have taken a couple of tablets and tried to sleep it off, not an option anymore. I am not sure what is causing them but I hope they f*ck off soon.

Other than that I am not terribly exciting, so until some more stuff happens that will have to do for now :)

Thursday, 18 August 2011

My how the time flies

I have been a little slack in posting on here, I didn't think people were reading it or that interested but I have been told by a girlfriend of mine that she looks forward to reading this one's for you!

I can't believe my son will be 6 months old tomorrow. The last 6 months have flown by, although there have been days that have felt excruciatingly long. Since becoming a parent myself I have more respect for mothers, you don't realise what a tough gig it can be until you do it yourself. I love my son more than anything though, even when he likes to test me sometimes I wouldn't change it for the world. He is my everything, I love his dad to pieces but the love I feel for my child is on a whole other level.

I wish I could report in that he was sleeping through by now, but alas my son thinks sleeping is for losers. We have good days and bad but overnight he tends to wake more than a few times. Which is why I selfishly kept him in bed with us, I get slightly more sleep when he is right beside me. I know I should be trying to transition him into his cot for overnight sleeps but I am just not ready for the battle that it will be.

He seems to be learning new things all the time, he has recently learnt how to mimic a clicking sort of noise we make to him with our mouths that is incredibly cute. He can't quite get it to make the same noise but he tries, we think he is incredibly clever.

He is a pretty happy child, he has taken to giving out smiles to random strangers when we are out and about. I couldn't be more proud...I have to admit I like it when people tell me how cute he is.

Also an update on the car front, we reconsolidated our loans to borrow extra to get another car for the hubby so I can have my own wheels again...freedom! Haven't started looking properly yet but at least there is light at the end of the tunnel.

I am also in the process of trying to finally get some study organised while I am at home with the wee one. I should find out soon, fingers crossed. It is because I am trying to enrol straight in to a diploma course that I need to qualify, if not I will need to do a certificate course before I can then go on to do a diploma.

Looking forward to the weekend, have a few things on...breakfast with some friends & there little bubba on Saturday morning, dinner with a friend Saturday night and a picnic in the park with our friends and their daughter on Sunday. I am hoping the weather will be nice as it is overcast today with showers forecast.

I am also excited about next week as next Friday night I will going out with my sister, niece and friends to a male revue show, should be good for a laugh. Will be my first night away from the boy by myself for more than an hour. Although the hubby & I went to a movie last Saturday and left him with nana for a few hours, that was the first proper time away from him. Also the first time we left him with anyone other than either of us, apparently he was happy as larry and was all smiles when we saw him afterwards. Made me feel better knowing that he had been ok and wasn't upset, gives me the confidence to try it again.

I have the car for the next week as well as the mother-in-law is off on a holiday overseas and the hubby is using her car while she is away. Will need to make the most of it and get out and about. I am off to the shopping centre today to buy a present for my niece who is turning 21 next week. We will be going out for a dinner next Saturday night for it with family and her friends, I am even contemplating staying out longer afterwards and the hubby will take our son home. Not that I can drink or stay out too late as I will need to come home to feed the boy. Although if he keeps biting my nipples, if only he didn't detest formula.

So that is where things are at...till next time.

Monday, 8 August 2011

If in doubt...blame it on teething!

So my son has been a little unsettled for the last couple of weeks, he hasn't been sleeping well and it was difficult to try and get him to go to sleep (let alone stay asleep).

I am not sure if his teeth are giving him grief or if it is down to what is known as 'wonder weeks'.

Another side affect of his newly acquired teeth is him using my nipple as a chew toy! They are surprisingly sharp and it bloody hurts, yesterday he drew blood for the first time. I am hopeful that he will snap out of it because otherwise he will be going on formula whether he likes it or not.

I am a bit sleep deprived after the weekend, wasn't just my son's fault (although he has been waking a lot during the night and waking up quite early). Saturday night my husband went to a bucks party, he was going to keep me updated throughout the night. When my son woke me up just before 1am and I realised the time I was concerned that he wasn't home yet. I sent him a text to find out where he was, I rang and left a message and then kept ringing as it kept ringing out. I was equal parts furious and worried (ok maybe slightly more furious). Long story short, he hadn't checked his phone and didn't think to send me a message (grrr) and got home just before 2am.

I was planning on making his life difficult the next day but then I just couldn't be bothered and got over it. Although I do expect him to make it up to me, ha.

Yesterday was another lovely day having a picnic with our best mates and their daughter, we want to make it a fairly regular thing. It was just so lovely and relaxing, gorgeous weather which makes me appreciate our little corner of the world. I can't wait till Summer time so we can go to the beach and build sandcastles.

My son woke up quite early this morning, he must have been knackered though as he slept for almost 2 hours this morning and is having another decent sleep now. Maybe he is going through a growth spurt? Hopefully he is back to sleeping well during the day again, fingers crossed.

Monday, 1 August 2011

What a weekend!

Saturday was manic, as I previously mentioned we had a 30th and a 1st birthday party to go to that day.

Only managed to spend a couple of hours at each (with a short break in between), finally called it a day around 6pm as our son had been awake since 11am! He tends to not want to sleep when we are out and about, too much going on and he doesn't want to miss out. He had a couple of power naps in the car but when we opened the door to grab him out he would wake up.

So as much as I would have liked to have stayed longer, I needed to put him first...he needed a sleep. He fought it as well because he was overtired, there was a lot of resettling.

Sunday we were suppose to catch up with some friends up Brissy way but we were both so knackered from Saturday that we postponed it.

Instead we just went and had breakfast out and then had a little squiz around the shops. As usual neither of us brought anything for ourselves but I got our son a few tops and some bonds wondersuits in the next size up!

He is growing and getting bigger and smarter all the time, I love watching him master new skills.

I can tell he wants to crawl but he gets frustrated that he can't do it, he will try for a bit. He is good at getting his bum up in the air but not there yet (thank-god, I am sure once he's mobile I will be kept on my toes).

I have had a shocking day food wise today, need to go shopping tonight as there isn't much in the house. My day has consisted of biscuits, chocolate and ice cream...oh dear, sounds worse when I put it in writing!

It is going to suck when I am no longer breastfeeding, then I won't be able to get away with days like this! Thankfully I am usually fairly sensible when it comes to food and try not to overindulge. Today has been an exception, though I still have little treats...just not as much.

Speaking of food, struck a new deal with the hubby over the weekend. I will cook dinner during the week every night (we usually take turns) and he has to look after our son during that time. That involves the bedtime routine of solids, bath, book, boobie (which I will obviously still do) and bed. As well as doing the dishes for me sometimes. We shall see how it goes.

It will start tomorrow night as he is out for a work dinner tonight, lucky bugger.

Wednesday, 27 July 2011

It's been too long!

Gee I have been really slack of late, sorry about that.

We had a busy weekend and time got away from me.

Had a lovely picnic in the park with our besties and their gorgeous 8 month old daughter on Sunday. It was a lovely day, fabulous weather and good company.

Monday I borrowed the car so I could go and catch up with some friends and went to IKEA for the meet up. I had their infamous Swedish meatballs for the first time, not bad at all.

I had been on tooth watch lately as our bubba had the signs that they were on the way and the two telltale bumps on his bottom gum. Well I can report that yesterday they had both cut through and he now has the beginnings of his two bottom teeth. I think they had been giving him a bit of grief, poor mite.

I can't believe how big he is getting and all the new skills he is learning, time is getting away. Before we know it he will be 1, well it feels that way.

We both so look forward to when he is a bit bigger and we can do more fun things with him. We dream of the day we can take our kids to Disneyland and lots of other adventures.

We've got another busy weekend planned, a 30th birthday and a 1st birthday on the same day followed by a BBQ at a friends place on the Sunday.

I really look forward to weekends though as it is an excuse to get out of the house!

Also the discussion of when to start trying for number two has arisen, my husband would like to start trying now and I was leaning towards after our son turns 1. My sister was over today though and she agrees with my husband that we should have them close together. Some of the things she said gave me food for thought and made me think that maybe I had been too dismissive of my husbands thoughts and we should revisit the conversation. We shall see...

Not much else has been happening with me, since I am mostly at home I don't get up to much. My husband is always saying 'tell me something exciting'...uh sorry hon but I don't have a lot to report, unless you are interested in how many times I changed a nappy, fed or sang a song to our son :)

I love him to bits but I do sometimes miss that adult interaction. Which was another argument for the hubby in relation to going again sooner - the sooner we have them the sooner it will be for me to go back to work. I guess it makes sense.

Right well I am off to hang out some washing (oh the joys), till next time.

Tuesday, 19 July 2011

It's going to be a long day

So last Friday night I put our son in to his cot overnight for the first time...disaster ensued. He woke every hour overnight and I was exhausted the next day.

Still managed to suck it up and go out to breakfast, I hate the thought of missing out. I had the option of staying home and sleeping in and my husband would have taken our son. My problem is also that once I am awake that is pretty much it, I am up for the day.

Saturday night I relented and brought him in to bed with us because I was so exhausted from the previous night, naughty mummy.

Sunday we had my sister, her husband and my niece around for a roast dinner...yum. First time I had cooked a roast pork and it turned out well.

I tried him back in his cot on Sunday night and he improved on the night before, there were a couple of 2 and 3 hour blocks between waking and replacing the dummy for most of them was enough to get him back to sleep. Only had to feed him once so that wasn't too bad.

However, last night was another difficult one. He woke alot and the dummy was not enough to get him back to sleep, he was wide awake a couple of times and difficult to re-settle. I caved at 5am and brought him into bed with us so I could try and get a little more sleep.

So very tired, what I would give for a good night's sleep. I was hoping that somehow he would magically start sleeping better overnight once I put him in his cot. No such luck though, I keep telling myself that I need to suck it up and persevere...we will get there in the end.

I don't know if it is the lack of sleep but I am feeling a bit meh and down today...

No point throwing myself a pity party, I will get over it. No time to wallow, I have a baby to look after.

Thursday, 14 July 2011

More Gorgeousness

As I have previously mentioned, I am getting a little obsessed with all hand made goodness for my son. I stumbled across another lovely page on facebook called Row Made (Row Made Facebook Page) that does cute lil' monsters. I happened to stumble across it at the right time as she was having a sale, see what I got below. It has been a hit, my son loves to munch on his little taggy head.

I also wanted to share another lovely bit of writing in regards to motherhood:

Also another small success to report on here, this morning when my son woke up after his usual 40 minute sleep cycle I went in to settle him and then left soon after to see if he would go back to sleep. It took a little while, there was a little bit of grizzling followed by a little bit of babbling and then...silence! When I went in to check on him (30 mins had passed since he first woke up) he was asleep, he managed to self settle and then proceeded to sleep another 40 mins :) 

He is definitely getting better during the day, now if only he would sleep better during the night. I keep hoping that somehow when I transfer him to his cot for overnight sleeps he will magically sleep longer! can dream. A not so comforting thought - last night my husband reminded me that he slept in his parents bed until he went to school! Arghhh, no way will I let that happen...I need to reclaim my side of the bed so I can sleep better.

Although my new motto is - Sleep is overrated. ha ha

Wednesday, 13 July 2011

Hit & Miss

So last week I had good intentions of starting a proper routine...

Then I went and got sick! So I have been a bit slack in sticking to it, but I have implemented changes and as the title has been hit and miss.

Sometimes when I have a 'win' I think it is just a fluke, it is not always repeated. Lately I have been successful in getting him re-settled after the first sleep cycle to go back down for a second (without having to pick him up). It doesn't work every time but I am still claiming it.

Overnight is still a dismal failure, the last few nights he has been waking every couple of hours (thank-god I haven't put him in his cot yet, that would have been really exhausting). It is made even harder by the fact that I am not feeling 100% at the moment.

I hope it is just a phase...

In other news, I wanted to share a cute poem I came across the other day:

I am your parent, you are my child
I am your quiet place, you are my wild

I am your calm face, you are my giggle
I am your wait, you are my wiggle

I am your dinner, you are my chocolate cake
I am your bedtime, you are my wide awake

I am your lullaby, you are my peekaboo
I am your goodnight kiss, you are my I love you

Monday, 11 July 2011

Soldier On

I say soldier on because I haven't been well since last Thursday and yet you just have to suck it up and get on with it. I am feeling a little knackered though.

It is times like these I wish my son wasn't so against formula so I could have a break, he could go off with daddy and I could just rest and chill out.

Another gf recently said that her husband gets to have all these hours being him and she only gets snippets of being her (if you know what I mean). I could totally relate to that and knew what she meant. You become a different version of yourself once you have a baby - you become mum. There is very little time off from being on mum duty where you can just be you, without being the mum version. I don't know if that makes sense to people.

I am torn though, even though I would like a break...I would miss my son. I wouldn't really know what to do with myself. Although I think it would be nice to just have some quiet time and relax.

I think my husband doesn't think that I trust that he can look after our son on his own, that is not the case...I am more concerned with how our son would go without me. There are times when nobody but me can comfort him and I don't like the thought of him getting upset if I am not there to make it better.

This is probably why we still haven't left him with his nanna so we can go see that movie. I want to...I just stress that he will get really worked up and I am not sure that I could enjoy my time away while that thought is running through my mind.

I am going to have to do it sometime though, I am still yet to have spent more than an hour away from him since he was born almost 5 months ago (and that is to do grocery shopping so nothing exciting).

I was almost a little jealous of the time my husband got to spend away, although he missed our son like crazy, but he got to go out to dinner and socialise etc. I was definitely envious...

I had said before our son was born that I wanted us to have a date night once a month where we we go out to dinner or a movie or just something to spend some quality time just the two of us. I am still yet to make that happen but I have no one to blame for that but myself. I haven't felt able to leave him with anyone yet for fear of how he will react.

Anyway I have rambled enough, I guess I am just tired and in need of a time-out.

Thursday, 7 July 2011

Whoops...have been a bit slack

Sorry I haven't posted these last couple of days, need a slap on the wrist. Mind you, there are only a small few that are my close friends that I know check in, so I don't think I have disappointed too many people, ha.

Has been a little hectic since dropping my husband off at the airport Tuesday night.

That first night was a little challenging, not sure if little man was aware that daddy wasn't around as he took a mammoth 2 hours to settle to go to sleep. Maybe he was testing mummy. Managed to survive that without losing my mind.

Yesterday was good, we had a good girlfriend of mine come over with her baby girl and hung out for the day. This is the girlfriend who lent me the Tizzie Hall book so was offering me encouragement and advice with implementing and sticking with the routine.

We haven't been perfect with that but we are trying, getting there slowly. I was happy last night that he slept from his dream feed at 10pm until 3am, so that was a decent block for him. Although he then woke again at 5am but still a slight success in my eyes.

Of course we have been missing daddy, only 1 more sleep to go until we get to see him. I am coping a lot better than I thought I would, I was a bit anxious about him being away. I am thankful that it isn't for a longer period though.

Tonight my mother-in-law is coming over to hang out and shout take-away, will be nice to have some company.

Monday, 4 July 2011

1 more sleep to go...

Till the hubby is away for a few nights, part of me is like 'suck it up, it's only a few nights'. Then there is the other part of me that will miss him terribly and is a little apprehensive about how I will go being on my own with our son.

Deep down I know I will be fine, I am with him just the two of us most of the time anyway. I think it is also partly that I crave that companionship and adult conversation when he gets home from work. Like most men, my husband is not big on talking for ages on the phone. Don't get me wrong, he calls me every day to see how things are going etc, it is just that they rarely last more than a minute or two.

Although absence definitely makes the heart grow fonder when it comes to us, I think we are both guilty of sometimes taking the other for granted. Time apart makes us both appreciate what we have.

So an update on the whole sleep situation, I have decided I can't try and stretch our son out too much as that just seems to make him harder to settle and doesn't result in him sleeping any longer.

A girlfriend has given me a copy of her book to read 'Save Our Sleep' by Tizzie Hall. I was always against the idea of a strict regimen/routine. I didn't want to be restricted by it and feel as though I had to plan my life around those specific times. However I am getting to a point where I am starting to realise that having some sort of structure to our day might see improvements. I can't even begin to imagine having him sleep through the night, it would be like finding a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. Ha!

I think it is going to take some time though, he still doesn't know how to resettle himself after one sleep cycle and I have found that the only way to get him to go back to sleep for a second cycle, is if I pick him up and rock/pat/sway etc. He is lasting longer between feeds now though, thankfully, as he was wanting it every couple of hours or so previously.

So I will try and attempt to stick to some sort of routine, today is the first day and he hasn't been able to last as long between sleeps or sleep as long as he should each time so we are a bit out of whack. Will persevere and hope for the best...wish me luck.

Saturday, 2 July 2011

Checking in

Just thought I would check in and update on how things are going with the whole sleep experiment...

Not too great to be honest, it just makes him overtired and a little cranky and harder to settle. So far it hasn't made him sleep any longer than usual. I will persevere and hope for a pay off at the end.

I don't know why it is but he always seems to be more difficult to settle on weekends, I don't know if it is because we are out and about and it disrupts things. Even if we are at home he still tends to protest a little more than usual.

He is being particularly stubborn this afternoon about not going down for asleep, or just when you think you have managed it, he goes and wakes up again 5 mins later.

Hopefully he won't be a cranky baby tonight as we are going for dinner at a friends place.

In other crappy news, only 3 more sleeps until the husband goes away :(

Friday, 1 July 2011

To routine or not to routine, that is the question.

Hubby has made the suggestion that we should consider trying to get our son in to some sort of routine to try and encourage him to sleep longer. He is currently fed on demand and sleeps when he's tired, which while I am sure is all good for him, is not so good for mummy.

I kind of have the attitude of 'it's easier said than done’; not really relishing the hard work that it will likely take to get it to stick. However, once it is successful I will be much better for it.

I am going to give it a shot; hubby has suggested stretching him out longer during the day for his sleeps in the hopes that it will make him sleep better overnight. He still wakes every few hours (sometimes less on the odd occasion) during the night, thankfully we are co-sleeping so it makes it easier to feed him/get him back to sleep. Although I am not (and have not in a long time) getting a good night's sleep, so it is worth a shot to try something.

I am going to try and stretch him out gradually, he was getting tired after only being up for an hour to an hour and a half. So I will try and increase his awake time in half hour increments every nap time and see how it goes. I am doubtful that he will magically start sleeping longer straight away but hopefully it won't take too long to catch on.

I also want to attempt to move him in to his cot for overnight sleeps sometime soon, in the hope that it will allow me to be more comfortable for the intervals of sleep that I do get! For some reason our son, while always placed in the middle of the bed, tends to gravitate towards me/my side so that I only end up with a little sliver on the edge.

So I will leave it there for now and will report back on how things go.

Wednesday, 29 June 2011


So I have been working on teaching my son to self settle for a little over a week now. There has definitely been progress, sometimes it takes a little longer than others or he may need more help from me.

Overall though, I am pretty pleased with how things are progressing. Generally he will whinge for 5 mins or so and then falls asleep. Sometimes he will be out to it almost straight away, but those times are rare.

He even surprised me a couple of times lately by sleeping longer than one sleep cycle, if only he would do that more often...

Now if I could just get him to sleep longer overnight!

Also it is lucky we didn't go ahead and book our flights yesterday as our first phone bill has come in since we moved in to our new place, which includes a $299 charge for connection (thankfully that will be reimbursed by the real estate but we still need to pay it upfront). We also have car rego due so it is an expensive month.

Tuesday, 28 June 2011

Time apart

My husband will be going away for a few nights for work next week. Initially we were looking in to the possibility of extending it to the weekend and making a small family holiday out of it. Realistically though, we are not in a position financially where we could spare the cash that would be needed to make it happen. We could have but then it would have been struggle street for the rest of the month.

Plus the more I think about it, the more I realise it would have been a little difficult being interstate without all of the comforts of home when it comes to looking after a baby. Although that is bound to happen at sometime in the future but at least then we wouldn't be left to our own devices during the day while daddy was at work.

It is going to suck, I will miss him. I am not worried about having to look after our son on my own, although I do look forward to when my husband gets home so I can have someone else to take a bit of the load off. We don't often spend time apart, in the whole 12 years we have been together, there have only been a handful of times away from each other. 

So I am not looking forward to that...

In other news, it looks as though our son might be teething. I didn't think he was as the only symptom he had was excessive drooling. But it looks as though he may have a little toothy peg trying to come through, time will tell I guess.

Sunday, 26 June 2011


It's been a busy weekend.

The Baby Expo yesterday was a little nightmarish...neither me or my husband are particularly fond of big crowds. Especially when you throw in to the mix a shite load of prams and people clogging up the aisles and I was sorely tempted to start barging people with my pram (not that I would but I do believe pram rage exists!).

Needless to say we decided to bail fairly quickly, bit of a waste really. There wasn't a hell of a lot there to tempt me anyway, just annoyed that we spent money on petrol getting there and back, plus expensive parking and entry. Ah well, live and learn...don't think I will be doing that again.

We didn't end up making it to the movie this weekend either, maybe next weekend instead...

Today we went and brought ourselves a new laptop (yay a new toy) and visited my mother-in-law, my husband washed the car and we all went for a family walk together...not a bad Sunday.

Friday, 24 June 2011

Woo Hoo it's the weekend

I am eagerly awaiting the arrival of my husband from work, I love weekends...if only they didn't go by so quick.

Today has gone by rather quickly as I have had a couple of separate visits from girlfriends today. It is always nice to have that interaction with friends but I can't help but feel as though I don't have anything of value to contribute to the conversation. My days consist of the same thing, looking after my baby.

We have a Birthday Party to attend tonight, it should be good...I am looking forward to getting out of the house. I am currently without my own set of wheels as the car my husband was driving finally kicked the bucket (well it happened a few weeks back) and therefore he has been driving the 'good' car to work...leaving me stranded at home. Unless I want to drop him off and pick him up (which I sometimes do), which wouldn't be such a big deal if his office wasn't almost an hours drive away. Plus let's not forget the cost of petrol! It gets a bit pricey, so I usually wait until I am getting a little stir crazy being cooped up at home before I do that.

Tomorrow we are going to a Parenting & Baby Expo which should be interesting (if not potentially expensive if they have really good deals there!). I'm not going there with the intent to spend lots of money but of there is a bargain to be had and I can justify the purchase...well then I can't say no.

We are also potentially going to attempt to go to the movies and leave our son with his nanna for a couple of hours. Whether this actually happens or not is another thing...I still haven't been away from my son for more than an hour and nor have we ever left him with anyone other than ourselves.

I can't help but feel a little anxious at the thought of what if he gets upset and she can't settle him, he will get himself worked up in to a state and I won't be there to comfort him. It is not that I am worried about whether she is capable of looking after him, more so his reaction. I would feel terrible if he got all upset, I know it needs to be done at some stage. I would just feel more at ease if I knew he was at a point where he would be fine and it wouldn't phase him.

I guess we won't know until we try. I will report back...

Thursday, 23 June 2011

Parcels in the post = Pressies

We had a couple of deliveries today, one was an ebay purchase for the phenomenon that is 'Sophie the Giraffe'. It is a teething toy which is rubber and has a squeaker in it, my son has already had a bit of a munch on it.

I am not sure that he is teething yet, apart from drooling a lot and constantly (which he has been doing for awhile) he doesn't have any of the other symptoms. I got the toy as I like to be prepared and it is incredibly popular so I am hoping it will help when the time comes. I am also contemplating buying the amber bracelet/necklaces that are supposed to help with teething as well.

The other package was some more handmade goodies! This time some lovely knitted items from Well I'll Be Darned.

Well I'll Be Darned Facebook Page

I ordered my son some gorgeous little booties and a custom beanie in the colours of my husband's AFL team - Collingwood. They both turned out incredibly well and you will have to take my word for it when I say he looks incredibly cute in them.

I can see myself getting a little addicted to buying cute things online for my little man, lucky for my hubby I try not to spend too much or go too crazy, just little bits here and there.

Now, what else can I get...ha.

Wednesday, 22 June 2011

Daily musings...

So I previously mentioned that my hubby and I were meant to do a food plan and try and be healthy...blah blah blah. As I thought, we still have not got around to doing a food plan and his ideas are a little more extreme than I would like.

The reason I am mentioning this is because I did the food shopping on Monday and went out of my way to only buy 'healthy' items, lots of fruit and veg etc. and I need to vent about the fact that it always cost tons more to do a 'healthy' shop than it does a 'normal' shop!

You would think with the obesity problem all over the world that they would make healthy eating more affordable...sigh. It is a sad state of affairs when it is cheaper to eat junk than it is to eat well.

Also wanted to mention a snippet of conversation between hubby and I last night. He said to me "it is hard to imagine life without our little sausage now isn't it?" and I replied "It changes everything but you wouldn't change it for anything".

So true, once you have your little bundle of joy it really is a struggle to imagine what life would be like without them. As much as you sometimes reminisce about the 'old days' you wouldn't change it for the world. While I sometimes miss the freedom you once had, it doesn't even come close to the love you feel for that little person that you both made. So incredibly proud of ourselves, ha ha...we often marvel at how we could of made something so damn cute (if I do say so myself).

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

Handmade with Love!

As a new mum I have recently discovered the world of adorable handmade treasures for bubs and children.

Today in the post I received one such item from a very talented lady, her company is called Mahlimae and she does the most gorgeous little creatures.

I ordered a ‘Twinkle’ for my son as a custom order, she was very accommodating and lovely and the turnaround was incredibly quick.

I have posted the links below for both her Facebook and Etsy page as well as sharing of photo of our gorgeous Twinkle.

Mahlimae Facebook Page

Mahlimae Etsy Page

Twinkle has a cute little rattle inside him and is great for babies to munch on, my son already has!

As I discover more talented mummas out there I will share them here with you.


Thankfully it is not I who is sick! My poor hubby has a touch of the flu and has been home from work (so I have two kids to look after, ha). I went out and brought some Glen 20 yesterday to try and kill the germs he has been spreading around with his cough. I am hopeful that he won't make the baby sick, fingers crossed.

I am also hoping that I don't get it as I need to be well to look after our son, it just makes it that much harder when you aren't 100%. Although I would gladly be the one to get sick if it spared him, it is horrible seeing your baby unwell and not really being able to do much to help them.

I am meant to have a girlfriend and her baby girl over for a visit today but I have texted to warn that my husband is home and not well as I would hate for him to make them sick! So I am not sure that will be happening anymore, I was looking forward to it as we haven't caught up in a few weeks.

Being a stay at home mum now means that contact with others and the 'outside world' are a treat, that sounds a little dramatic but all I mean is that it is nice to have some company.

Well I'm off to clean the house some more, joy.

Sunday, 19 June 2011

Weekends go too fast

I used to dread Sunday nights because it always meant back to work for another week. Now I slightly resent them as it means my husband is back to work for another week and those 2 precious days we get to spend all together as a family just never feels like enough!

I really enjoy our time together and though I wish it could be longer (as I'm sure does my husband), I understand that it has to be done.

The weather was especially lovely this weekend, made me appreciate where we live and the quality of life we have here. We spent time with visiting family, a spot of shopping (I could always find something to buy for my boy) and of course eating out.

Also I have to gush a little about my husband, not only did he still pull his weight even though he has been under the weather...he also brought me a lovely Thomas Sabo necklace which I loved (it was a belated birthday present). I am a lucky woman to have such a supportive husband who really is a great dad.

I wonder what the week will bring?

Saturday, 18 June 2011

Catch ups...

Whoops, didn't manage to post on here yesterday!

Instead we were busy catching up with a girlfriend who had a gorgeous baby girl a month ago. It is amazing seeing how small she was in comparison to my son and to think that it really wasn't all that long ago that he was that tiny.

It really is fascinating watching them grow, he changes from week to week and learns new skills all the time. It is a proud moment when they master some new skill.

My girlfriend and I were also talking about how proud you are when they burp and poo and yet how utterly disgusted you are when your partner does it!

As a mum it is a great past time to trade war stories (birth) and compare traits and just generally seek advice. I vowed when I was pregnant to not be one of those mums who only talks about her child, I have to say though...when you are around other mums, it is hard not to. Not to mention the fact that I don't have much else going on at the moment so that is my main topic of conversation.

It was great to catch up and just hang out, so many of my days are spent just the two of us so it is nice to get out and about and enjoy other people's company.

On on a non baby related note (shock horror) I am getting my hair dyed today...going from blonde to brunette (less maintenance, although I am worried it may show up the greys more...ha). Fingers crossed it looks good.

Hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend.

Thursday, 16 June 2011

Holding my breathe

As I have previously mentioned, we are yet to master more than one sleep cycle during the day.

Typically he will last roughly 40 mins each sleep, with the occasional 50 mins to an hour. No amount of shushing, patting or rocking will convince him to go back to sleep once he has decided he is awake!

If my attempts to get him to fall back asleep haven't succeeded after 5-10 mins I will usually accept defeat.

The reason I am holding my breathe is it looks as though I managed to get him to go back to sleep and he may just last that elusive second sleep cycle...has been an extra 20 mins (so far) and counting.

I just hope I am not jinxing it by mentioning it on here, I swear babies have a sixth sense when it comes to this stuff.

So fingers crossed, now if only we can make this happen more than just a 'one off'.

Wednesday, 15 June 2011

Chocolate equals weight loss...right?

When I was pregnant I didn't really have any cravings, towards the end I always felt like (and indulged in) chocolate milk. Not to mention sweet things in general, I typically have a bit of a sweet tooth but try not to cave in too often. 

I am guilty of using pregnancy as an excuse to eat all things delicious, whilst being mindful of weight gain and not going too crazy! I told myself that I would cease eating so much 'naughty' food once my son was born...that I would be 'good' and get back to trying to be sensible when it comes to my diet. 

Well we are 4 months in and I am still craving chocolate and dessert like it is going out of fashion, I 'need' to have at least 1 yummy thing a day, ha. I think I must have developed a taste for it (not that I hadn't had it before but never quite so much). 

The thing I find perplexing is that I have done nothing to really try and lose the pregnancy weight (thankfully it wasn't astronomical) and yet I have still lost weight. I am now about a kilo less than when I first found out I was pregnant, imagine what I could achieve if I actually tried!

I really need to find the motivation to get active and fit, ideally I would like to lose roughly another 8kg's. My husband is always on at me to start being healthy (the both of us, not just me) and we keep talking about doing a food plan but never get around to it. Plus I am guilty of buying sinful items when I go to the supermarket without him. 

I need to make some sort of commitment, although I find it hard to want to exercise when I am so tired! It's a lame excuse I know...I am sure I will get there in the end. I'm sure my husband will be instrumental in making me participate in his getting fit & healthy plan, even if he has to drag me kicking and screaming :) 

Will keep you posted on how that goes.

Tuesday, 14 June 2011

Testing a new tool

So I downloaded a program called Windows Live Writer that I can use for making blog posts and editing etc which then publishes it to your blog online. Let’s see if it works!

Another cool thing I have added is the function that when I put up a new post it will automatically add a link on my twitter feed.

Also I have been contemplating whether to add photos on this blog, I am in two minds about it. Whilst I currently have photos on my personal facebook page, they are restricted to friends only. My concern about putting photos of my son out there is that they could be used inappropriately, the mere thought of that turns my stomach.

So am I being paranoid? I would love to hear from people and get their opinion on whether I should incorporate photos or not.

Getting the hang of things

As you may have noticed, I have been fiddling around with the settings trying to get to grips with this.

I am a complete novice and I am learning as I go so bare with me, the more I learn, hopefully the more interesting this blog will become.

The hubby is back at work today so back to just me and the boy. I am hoping that he will go back to his usual self and not fight sleep so much. I dream of the day when my baby sleeps through, I can't remember the last time I got a good night's sleep!

To be fair though, I haven't tried to get him in to any sort of routine...I feed on demand and put him to bed when he shows tired cues. I'm not too keen on being restricted by the regimen of a routine, I like to go with the flow. On the other hand, I have seen how it can work for others and the benefits it can bring, a well rested mum is a happy mum. Sometimes being tired can make you less patient, god knows I am not the most patient person at the best of times. I haven't had any meltdowns (yet) but it can be exhausting and I definitely count down till the hubby gets home. There are days when he can walk through the door and I practically thrust the baby at him - take your son! Those days have been few and far between but it can certainly be trying at times.

As a woman (and I am sure some of you will agree) sometimes I feel like the men don't truly get it or appreciate just how hard this mother malarky can be. (No offence honey if you are reading this, you are a great help). Being a stay at home mum is a new experience for me, I am used to pulling my weight financially. There is almost a certain amount of guilt that comes with no longer contributing (apart from centrelink, not that it amounts to much), all of the pressure resides on hubby to 'bring home the bacon' etc. But at the end of the day I also feel like I am working 24/7, with no sick pay or holidays, ha ha. I take my hat off to single mothers around the world, I don't know how they manage. Having the support of my husband certainly eases the strain and having an extra set of hands makes all the difference.

Anyway I am ranting, I could babble on and on, I am good at that! However, this isn't a novel so I will leave it there for now, I am sure that topic will come up again.

Right now I am watching my son jump about in his jumperoo and having a great old time, talking to his new mate Spike the Dinosaur, too cute. I could watch him all day...

Monday, 13 June 2011

Coffee is my friend

The aftershocks from shots! It definitely has an effect as he seemed unsettled, however last night (day two) confirmed it.

During the day wasn't too bad aside from the fact that he refused to sleep and what little sleep he had was not nearly enough...he wasn't even making it through one full sleep cycle. This made for an overtired and cranky baby later in the night, which then led to hysterical crying that not even the boobie could cure.

Eventually he went down but it was a very restless night with lots of waking up and just generally being upset and not his usual self. This my friends, is why coffee is an essential part of my daily routine. Especially after a night like last night! I should have brought shares in Zaraffa's before he was born as sometimes it feels as though myself and my husband are keeping them in business.

Thankfully today he seems a lot happier than he was on the weekend, still not quite back to his usual self as it is still proving difficult to get him to go to sleep. Although he did have one decent sleep this morning in the car & pram as we were out and about, he definitely needed it. Thank-god it's a public holiday so the husband was on hand to help ease the load. (If only he would take a bottle of formula so I could leave him with daddy and go catch up on some zzz's).

In other news, we have started him on some solids...he seems to be taking to it quite well. It is an interesting time watching him experience these new tastes and sensations, his facial expressions are golden. Hopefully if we feed him veggies now he won't be as fussy an eater as his dad is!

Here's hoping he reverts back to his normal self soon, a baby that doesn't sleep makes for a very tired mummy.

Saturday, 11 June 2011

Suffering from anxiety!

The reason I am suffering from anxiety is because today was my son's 4 month shots!

It has to be one of the hard parts of being a mum, watching your child in pain and knowing that you are partly responsible. I said to my husband 'it feels like taking a lamb to the slaughter'. A bit dramatic I know, it is made harder by the fact that he had no idea what was coming.

To be fair, he was a little trooper...yes there were tears (thankfully not from me this time) but he was over it fairly quickly. Cuddles from mummy and daddy helped as well and he was smiling and back to his happy self in no time.

I think this time was a little easier than the last, he was so much smaller then and I think as a mum you are so emotional in those earlier days. He was a little unsettled the for a day last time so I am not sure what to expect this time round, so far so good.

I guess I will see what the rest of the day brings...fingers crossed.

Friday, 10 June 2011

Let's kick things off...

So where to begin? First of all, I am trying to get this done in the short window of opportunity while my 4 month old son sleeps! We are yet to master longer than one sleep cycle during the day and certainly haven't mastered sleeping through the night...but I am sure we will get to that.

I suppose I should begin by introducing myself. I am a first time mum, 30 years old and married to the love of my life. My husband and I have been together for 12 years and married for 4, it was this time last year as we were heading towards the big 3-0 that we took the plunge and decided to start our family.

We were living in London at the time and had been there for close to 4 years, we had made the choice to move back home to Australia to have the love and support of family and friends for the adventure that is parenthood.

I won't bore you with the details of the pregnancy (I had a fairly easy pregnancy, no morning sickness!), or the subsequent birth. God knows I don't have the time to go back and cover the last 4 months in detail. It has been a whirlwind, everyone tells you that they grow up so fast and it is so very true!

There are highs and lows, good days and bad but at the end of the day there is no greater gift than looking at my gorgeous son and listening to him babble baby speak, giggle and give me a big smile - it makes it all worth it.

Lately I have been struggling with the lack of adult interaction, whilst hubby is away at work we are often left to our own devices during the day and as much as I love my son, it can get a little lonely. I would even go so far as to say I miss working (I was good at my job and enjoyed it).

On the other hand, I am nowhere near ready to leave my baby in the hands of others. As it is, I haven't spent more than an hour away from him since he was born. It also makes it difficult as I am breastfeeding and he currently only lasts not even 3 hours before he'll start crying for a feed. We tried to introduce formula...disaster! He screws up his face and spits it out everywhere and starts getting a little hysterical, I guess he is a fan of the boob.

It was my husband who suggested I start a blog as he had recently started one of his own. I finally decided to take the plunge, I have no idea if I have anything of interest worth sharing. This could be therapeutic, a way for me to express my thoughts and feelings and get it all out.

So if anyone reads this, that is a bonus...and if you are reading this now, I hope you enjoy it! Experience this first year and the trials and tribulations ahead of mummyhood. xo